Life

Life..lately my life has taken an unexpected turn for the good or bad havent really decided yet...

has caused me to spend alot of time thinking and asking questions of myself...

The shape the economy is in these days makes one sit back and wonder.. I work for a strong company showing profits still thru the turmoil of the economy many say i have a recession proof job.. Perhaps I do so why am i thinking of walking away from a good job..a good company..this isnt a fly by night thought have done the math thought about and still not sure about it. Some of my friends tell me to suck it up and keep working ...others tell me to give it up and do what i want for a few years...One thought in the back of my head is how long can my company remain strong and it has changed so much over the years I have been with them..In the recents months i have seen upper level management leave , these are people I have known since i was a teen. I have talked with one or two of them but they cannot really discuss why they left and went with a competitor but have indirectly advised me the time may be right to move on. Sure they could be saying this so i will go work for them so there opinion is very low on my list.

After 25 years I can walk away with a nice sum or do i hold out for a few more years and take a chance. All my life I have done what is expected of me ..so this isnt an easy decision. I have seen many of my friends laid off after years with a company so i do look at that as well. My company has never *laidoff* but unfortunately i have seen many good people pushed out for various reasons.

Perhaps I will hold off and take some vacation and travel a bit then make a decision . It is not something I will do tommorrow but i see a diffrent life in 2010..wether I stay or leave I will be taking care of me!

5 years

5 years ago today i lost my hero my best friend...my dad..miss him alot these days!

I bought a toaster!

ok admit it your all going so what?

I went from my parents house to my husbands house.
I never lived on my own so everything I always bought was for our home or my parents home. This is the first thing I have bought for my home. No input from anyone no asking if it was OK to buy it. Just a simple boring toaster..OK it can cook bagels ,,but my point is it is mine all mine :)

For me it was a big step in the realization I like having my own place my own things. An old friend called me the other day to ask how I was doing i said good he said your lieing. He was right realization hit me a few weeks ago that my marriage was over and there was no turning back. I am hurting and probably will for awhile . I know down the road I will be OK. He made me realize this am i concerned about my soon to be ex ..yes i am..but i cannot dwell on it anymore it was his choice as my friend pointed out.

I have to admit I am scared and confused about alot of things but with the help of my family and friends *sl and rl* i know I will be ok and everything will work out and i have a new toaster :P

No More

about a week ago , i wrote a blog that offended someone and i deleted it at there request..but have decided that what i write here is me expressing myself and if you dont like it dont read it...simple as that......

I was also going to delete this blog and start another one so they didnt have the link..but i have decided screw it..if i am that interesting and you must read me go ahead but dont ask me to change something.

I just love double standards...and people who cannot be honest and up front..some may not see it as deceptions but i do..a deception doesnt have to be an out right lie..but hey life goes on and so will I.

Kittie

My RL birthday was a few weeks ago and a friend gave me Kittie..OK i did kill him in the first 10 minutes and had to get a replacement..*note* read the notecards..never detatch always drop. Lesson learned...

This kittie is a trip..it snores loudley..had to turn down the sounds. it plays and eats..has a bath attachment but havent gone there yet.

Kittie runs around and climbs in my plants..just like RL..I have no curtains so not sure if it will climb those. Made him his own bed cuz he seemed to like jumping on me during cuddle time.

Tiki Tora Beach Club

TIKI TORA BEACH CLUB
A joint endeavor from 4 sl friends..kylie...trace..chatbrat..and wacoede..has official opened..come down and party with us ..DJ Wacoede loves to spin the tunes..

Tiki Tora Beach Club

Hey all..watch for the opening soon of Tiki Tora Beach Club..a joint endeavor of a group of SL friends..will post more soon...